Truth or Dare

I have some amazingly awesome people in my life.

If I have failed in many ways as an adult, the one thing I am proud of is the quality of people who I have been able to surround myself with. I know I'm not solely responsible for this, but I am often blown over by the amazing awesome that is my friends and family. They are the most honest, loving, faith-filled, creative, challenging people I could have asked for.

Recently, it's been a big task for me to try and pull myself up out of whatever mire I've been stuck in for the past few years. Working too much, and not really living the life I want. And you've heard me time after time write about what life goal/challenge/bucket list/whatnot I think I'm going to do this week.

And almost universally, I fail. For a lot of reasons. But that's not important.

What is important is that I've noticed that where I succeed it is always become someone in my world is rooting me on and pushing me to do better. Hannah has been insanely supportive of the novel writing (5000 plus words now), and the dating thing (no online dating till there is magically more money). And by insanely supportive, I mean, she doesn't let me get away with any excuses, and she continues to push and ask and push every time we talk.

My parents have their own special brand of support that has always amazed me. They support and challenge with a level of love only seen in parents. I could succeed or lose, what they do for me isn't going to change, but that doesn't mean they don't want me to do better, to be better. They also have this thing where they listen to me talk and yup and uh-huh but I can sense the general tone of their feelings on the issue and I instinctively feel convicted and stop whining and change my mind but they don't actually say anything. It's really quite amazing.

I could go on and on. Tina J and Christina and James do this thing where they just jump, and I stand next to them staring and suddenly feel like I could jump too. Alex has this Yoda-esque quality where he says nothing until he says something incredibly insightful and by the time I recover from the shock he is saying nothing again. Karen finds a way to point to Jesus no matter how ridiculous the situation, and believe me, we have been in some ridiculous situations. Christy and Jamie fill my life with creative stuff everyday without even trying. On and On.

So to everyone in my little corner of the world, I say thank you and give you the credit you deserve for helping me everyday. I'm going to keep trying to be the person you all show me I can be. You are AWESOME.

Note to my Future Husband: People mentioned above are going to be key in winning me over and they understand my crazy. Listen to them.